“You’re daughter is upset with me.” Holly slid her hands in side of her front jean pockets. Brett, her ex-husband, had asked to have lunch with her while Holly’s mother took the children out to the zoo.
Brett walked beside Holly, while pushing the stroller that Oliver was inside of. The little boy was nearly on the brink of falling asleep. “Avery is upset with you? Damn, you must have really done something then.”
“I slept with a man whose daughter dances with Avery. Funny thing is we had sex at one of her recitals. We locked the door of course, but the girls dancing instructor sort of caught us, so instead of talking to the parents she told our daughters and banned Lily and Avery from dance for two weeks. You know for a child two weeks is like ten years.”
“Dance has been the only escape for Avery, Holly. You know that, so of course she’s upset with you because you helped take that away.” Stopping at the crosswalk, the two waited for the traffic to stop, and the light to go on allowing them to walk across.
“I know, I know and it just kills me knowing that. I’ve been just…not so great in the mother department lately. I fear I’m breaking into my old habits of just sleeping around again. The kids don’t deserve it, they need someone stable in their life and I just keep bringing people in to their lives then pulling them out. Ryder doesn’t care so much, but Avery takes it hard. Especially when Emma left, both of the kids were torn. Avery is still not over it.” The blond woman locked her arm with Brett’s as they crossed the street. The weather was dreary just like the weather man had predicted. It was supposed to rain after two in the afternoon, Holly just hoped on their way back they wouldn’t have to walk in the rain with Oliver.
“Look Holly, we’re all, well some of us are little white shadows. We sparkle and we glisten.” Holly seemed a bit confused, but Brett carried on. “You’re a white shadow because you’re heavenly. You could have any man, woman you wanted. You have a wonderful family, job, etc. Even the best of us have these shadows, problems that come and go. Some drag you down but you still sparkle and glisten no matter what because you don’t allow others to know that something is going on with you. My point is, don’t get down on yourself about this. I know in my heart that you’re a wonderful woman. Hell, I was married to you and I was the one who fucked that up, not you. You can’t be perfect, especially with your children. They’re going to be upset with you, and they’re not going to be happy with everything you do, but not being real with them will hurt them in the long run. You forget that Avery remembers when you were sick. She saw you at your worst, and look at how she sees you. She sees you as her mother who loves her, who wants the best for her, who is now strong and not that weak person you once were, she’s mad because you let her down. She knows about your one night stands, but you didn’t need to flaunt it in front of her. That should be separate from your children, and instead of sleeping with some random, you should’ve been watching her dance. That’s why she’s upset, because you chose some random person than her.”
“Why did we ever divorce?” Holly grinned making light of it.
“You know that answer Holls. Apart from loosing Lily, and my unfaithfulness we were perfect for each other.” Brett kissed the top of Holly’s head. Holly reached out for the door of the restaurant and held it open for Brett.